Growing Sideways 是歌手 Noah Kahan 收錄在新專輯《Stick Season》的歌曲，以抒情又憂傷的曲調唱著內心的苦澀。
歌詞中文翻譯
So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
所以我開始服藥，傾倒出我的所有創傷
On some sad-eyed middle aged man’s overpriced new leather couch
在一個有著悲傷雙眸中年男子的新皮革沙發上
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
我們爭論著耶穌，終於找到一些共識
I said “I’m cured”
我說道”我被治癒了”
And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
我將我的憤怒分散到不同地方
Keep the bad shit in my liver, and the rest around my heart
把那些垃圾放到我的肝，剩下的在我的心臟附近
I’m still angry at my parents, for what their parents did to them
我依舊對我的父母感到憤怒，對於他們的父母對他們所做的事情
But it’s a start
但這是個開始
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
但我忽略事情，我移向側邊道路
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
直到我遺忘我一開始的感受
At the end of the day lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive
到結束那天上帝知道有更糟的方式去活著
‘Cause everyone’s growing
因為每個人都在成長
And everyone’s healthy
每個人都好健康
I’m terrified that I might never have met me
我擔心我永遠不會遇見我自己
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
如果我的引擎有好好運作
I guess I’ll drive
我猜我會駕駛
I guess I’ll drive
我猜我會駕駛
So I forgot my medication
所以我忘掉我的治療
Fell into a manic high
感受到情緒高漲
Spent my savings at a Lulu
把我的積蓄都花在Lulu
Now I’m suffering in style
現在我備受折磨
Why is pain so damn impatient?
為什麼痛苦總是這麼沒耐心
Ain’t like it’s got a place to be
就好像它沒地方可去
Keeps rushing me
只能一直折磨我
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
但我忽略事情，我移向側邊道路
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
直到我遺忘我一開始的感受
At the end of the day lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive
到結束那天上帝知道有更糟的方式去活著
‘Cause everyone’s growing
因為每個人都在成長
And everyone’s healthy
每個人都好健康
I’m terrified that I might never have met me
我擔心我永遠不會遇見我自己
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
如果我的引擎有好好運作
I guess I’ll drive
我猜我會駕駛
And if all my life was wasted
如果我的人生被浪費了
I don’t mind, I’ll watch it go
我不在意，我會看著它流逝
Yeah, it’s better to die numb than feel it all
麻木地死去比感受一切來得好
Oh, if all my time was wasted
如果我的人生被浪費了
I don’t mind, I watch it go
我不在意，我會看著它流逝
Yeah, it’s better to die numb than feel it all
麻木地死去比感受一切來得好
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
但我忽略事情，我移向側邊道路
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
直到我遺忘我一開始的感受
At the end of the day lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive
到結束那天上帝知道有更糟的方式去活著
‘Cause everyone’s growing
因為每個人都在成長
And everyone’s healthy
每個人都好健康
I’m terrified that I might never have met me
我擔心我永遠不會遇見我自己
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
如果我的引擎有好好運作
I guess I’ll drive
我猜我會駕駛
I guess I’ll drive
我猜我會駕駛